November 13, 2013, Dear Diary. Beep beep beep” my alarm rang on and on until I had no choice but to wake up and shut it off. I looked around my still dark room in blatant despair, all I wanted to do was sleep, it felt like I hadn’t had a good night’s sleep in …
These Tears
These tears, these tears These tears, they won’t fall These tears, they hurt so bad Why? Why me? Why now? I wish you’d fall Fall, so I can be free It hurts, it hurts Deep breaths, deep breaths God sees me, God knows Sigh So I’ll try again Deep breaths, deep breaths Is that.. is …
Midday Musings..
Nerves. They're always simmering just above the surface, waiting to leap out at me. It doesn't matter what I am doing, if I'm happy or sad, it doesn't matter. I'm anxious all the time, my heart beats just a little faster all the time. Sometimes I try to catch myself and slow it down, I …
Dear Body..
I found my first grey hair at 30. I remember the exact moment, I was sitting in front of the mirror taking out my braids and I saw it, a long, very curly and very white strand of hair. My heart skipped a beat and then I went on with what I was doing. As …
Lay Here..
Don’t feel, don’t cry, chin up, be a man.. Be a man, be a man.. All these lofty standards, all these rules.. so you struggle.. Even when you’re anxious, overwhelmed and tired Even when it hurts so badly that you cannot breathe Even when you feel like you have failed and you feel like a …