November 13, 2013, Dear Diary. Beep beep beep” my alarm rang on and on until I had no choice but to wake up and shut it off. I looked around my still dark room in blatant despair, all I wanted to do was sleep, it felt like I hadn’t had a good night’s sleep in … Continue reading Meant To Be..
These tears, these tears These tears, they won’t fall These tears, they hurt so bad Why? Why me? Why now? I wish you’d fall Fall, so I can be free It hurts, it hurts Deep breaths, deep breaths God sees me, God knows Sigh So I’ll try again Deep breaths, deep breaths Is that.. is … Continue reading These Tears
Nerves. They’re always simmering just above the surface, waiting to leap out at me. It doesn’t matter what I am doing, if I’m happy or sad, it doesn’t matter. I’m anxious all the time, my heart beats just a little faster all the time. Sometimes I try to catch myself and slow it down, I … Continue reading Midday Musings..
I found my first grey hair at 30. I remember the exact moment, I was sitting in front of the mirror taking out my braids and I saw it, a long, very curly and very white strand of hair. My heart skipped a beat and then I went on with what I was doing. As … Continue reading Dear Body..
Don’t feel, don’t cry, chin up, be a man.. Be a man, be a man.. All these lofty standards, all these rules.. so you struggle.. Even when you’re anxious, overwhelmed and tired Even when it hurts so badly that you cannot breathe Even when you feel like you have failed and you feel like a … Continue reading Lay Here..
Happy new year my people.. A few days ago, I was feeling a little blue and I decided to call my mum. I am so happy I did because not only did she cheer me up and pray for me, she also reminded me of who I am. I want to share a little of … Continue reading My Grandfather’s Pride..
About a year ago, I pierced my Conch. It’s a tough cartilage in the ear but I wanted it badly and so I went and got it done. Nothing prepared me for how painful it was. Of my twelve piercings, this one brought me to my knees many many times and it hurt like hell. … Continue reading A Life Lesson From My Cartilage And I..
Life is filled with random coincidences and I thought that this one was worth sharing. Few weeks ago while I was taking off my braids, I cut my left hand in a freak accident, the flesh came right off and it hurt so badly. Eventually it healed and left a scar above my thumb. I … Continue reading Love and Scars..
Hi my people, So today we will ignore my absence and act like I never left okay? Okay😊 Something happened to me this week that jolted me out of my spell of writer’s block and I absolutely had to share it. It’s about the blessings that I so often take for granted. On Wednesday morning, … Continue reading All The Little Blessings…
Dear Diary, There will be no sunshine and rose petals on this post.. I can’t sleep. It’s been months since I enjoyed good sleep. I sleep, but I stay tossing and turning, waking up countless times with vivid and confusing dreams that disappear as soon as my eyes open. I wake up tired, the weight … Continue reading How Am I? Well..
