This Year..

Hi my people, *peeks from behind the curtain* it’s me! I made this draft last year and I don’t know why I didn’t post it so here goes. I am back, I promise. More posts coming soon, until then, be well my friends..

8:43 pm. I’m sitting on the floor,waiting for a dizzy spell to pass, listening to my mum tell me one of my aunts has breast cancer. I didn’t say a word, this news washed over me and it felt like tiny little pin pricks of pain across my already sore skin. This year I sighed, this year. At this point if the sky falls will we bat an eyelid?

2022 has been a hell of a year. I feel like I have said this for the past five years or so but 2022 really takes the cake. I Kicked of January with Covid, It was a horrific few weeks, lost my dad in March, and after that the whole year pretty much passed by in a teary blur. It has taken me every ounce of strength I have to make it through each day since January. Through all these though, I have gained a deep perspective that I never had before. I have been anemic for a few weeks now and it is kicking my butt. I have never been so exhausted in my life. I am dizzy, cold, you name it. However, before the Dr told me how low my iron levels were he also told me every other thing was fine; blood sugar, cholesterol and all of them so in the grand scheme of things whats a little anemia right? I can sit here complaining about all the pills I have to take daily or I can be grateful that I live in a country where healthcare is free and I have easy access to Drs and medications that help me. Perspective.

I really wanted to write more this year, truly I did. I tried but I just didn’t have any words. I did find pockets of sunshine and happiness somedays though and I held on as long as I could. I had some wins, and God did some big things for my family and I but I am ready for this year to be over. I pray to never see a year like this again.

I hope that you all are well, I hope you had a good year, I hope you found reasons to be happy this year, and if not I’m wishing hard with you that next year will be better.