Hey My People,
It has been many moons since the last time you read from me, haha that sounds dramatic but it feels that way to me. Anyways here I am if you’ll take me because we have some catching up to do. This might be a long read, or not.. I guess we’ll see.
After five long years of being apart from each other, I finally saw my mum and brothers again. I still have no words to describe what that felt like but last Christmas was genuinely one of the happiest I have ever been in my life, my whole life! I laughed so hard, cried a lot, ate a lot, played a lot and walked so much my goodness the walking I did in the UK had my calves toned for sure. Ah it was a balm to my soul truly, I hated leaving them again and I am counting down quite literally to when I will see them again.
I turned 36 yesterday, I’m not quite sure how I feel about that yet but I must say that the birthday blues hit me hard this year. My past two birthdays have been complicated to say the least. My Father died on the third of March, fourteen days to my birthday and I haven’t quite learned how to navigate my new reality. I don’t know how to go from thinking about my dad and mourning his loss on the third to celebrating my birthday on the 17th so I find myself stuck in between and it sucks. I tried so hard to let go and be happy this year, if you know me you know that I LOVE my birthday! In fact birthdays in general, I think I sometimes look forward to the birthdays of the people in my life more than they do so imagine my dismay finding myself struggling to be happy on mine. Anyway, I came to a few realizations yesterday; It’s up to me to have the birthday I want and so I owe it to myself to curate it and next year I will do exactly that, I will be happy and I will celebrate my life and the woman I am and I know that it will be beautiful. Yesterday was a rollercoaster of emotions, but I must say that for the most part I felt the love and reading all my messages definitely put a smile on my face, so here’s a heartfelt thank you.
Life has been good lately I cannot lie, no matter what else that’s happening with me I can never lose sight of how great this year started out for me, and for that I am always thankful to God for how far He has brought me and I’m looking forward to all that is to come.
Another thing I am thankful for is that winter is finally over, the days have gotten longer and the night doesn’t feel as heavy, I cannot wait for color to come back, for flowers to sprout, for gardens to bloom and most importantly for the sun to chase the gloomy clouds away. This summer I have promised myself to go out and explore my city, no excuses. I’ve already started looking into activities and trying to figure out how to make them come together because my theme for this summer is beach, fun, and lots of photos!
Some pockets of happiness I have uncovered recently has to be soups, I have been experimenting with soups lately and my favorite thing to eat now is a coconut red lentil soup recipe that I found from TikTok. It’s so delicious and warm and comforting and I think it’s time to make a new batch! I’ve also rediscovered my love for romance novels and I have been doing a lot of reading whenever I can. I also just rewatched New Girl and Superstore and they’ve injected some much needed cheer into my life.
I hope life is treating you all kindly, I hope you’re finding reasons to smile. I promise to try my absolute best to write more this year and I hope and believe that it can only get better from here on out. And hey! Maybe feeling blue is not the worst thing, I think blue is a beautiful color, it’s the color of the ocean and I love the ocean ☺️ sending you all love and joy..
“There is something infinitely healing in the repeated refrains of nature – the assurance that dawn comes after night, and spring after winter.” —Rachel Carson
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